Most of the people were asking me does any kind of feeling encircles me, like if I feel depressed and all other heavy emotions? If so then what do I do? So let me be very realistic that yes, I do feel everything such as heartbreak, depression and my motivation goes to the lowest gear too. It’s like whenever I say that I’m feeling blah blah blah, people take me for granted but for me, this blah blah blah feeling means a lot.
There is some wakeful night where the next morning doesn’t bring me sunshine but a most disastrous day, where I feel to speak less and think more. I feel if someone comes and holds my hand, I feel to weep hard. Even sometimes I feel like a zombie who wants to stroll unintentionally. I feel to not care about anything because this funk feeling covers me from all the four corners. Even I continuously stare at my books for more than 30 minutes. I don’t feel to scream but yes!! I feel to cry a little louder. Rather than asking for help, I feel to bury my head between the legs and grab myself tightly.
So I am all okay to share whatever I feel because I know I’m a human being. I don’t feel shy or think that someone gonna judge me. It’s normal whatever I feel because all days can’t be the same.
The only matter is how I deal with the situation? How do I treat myself?
How do I handle my blah blah blah days?
Two elements which assist me to survive this day
1. Pampering: Hey!! Dreamer, it’s okay to feel the way you are feeling right now. See, these feelings are temporary. You know what, you are a beautiful soul and please don’t take your feelings for granted. Ummm? Okay, tell me what do you want? A cup of coffee or a glass of your special bournvita milk with 3 ice cubes? Do you want to take a shower with great music? Let’s walk and hug the tree. This is how I pamper or treat myself.
2. Social distancing: I distance myself from the people, yes! Sharing is best but I share when I’m about to recover. First of all, I keep myself isolated to understand what actually happens. I try to figure out is something really bothering me or if just mood swings are responsible. I feel relaxed when I cover myself in a blanket and behave like a couch potato.
You know having a break is most important for all of us especially when we feel like blah blah blah. Having rest doesn’t mean watching a movie, listening to music, or scrolling screens but it means doing nothing. Yes! To be quiet and be with yourself only. I also distance myself from social networking. Don’t laugh! I actually do so because I know this little thing makes me feel comfortable a lot.
Final thought
I never prefer to hide my blah blah blah days. Even on these days I especially wear my blah blah blah print t-shirt. Nobody noticed but few of my close friends are aware of it. It’s funny but I don’t feel shy to show off my feelings. I think If people choose to see my positive side they must be aware of my zombie days too. I am happy about all these different days, all these different feelings because these days bring me closer to myself. They help me to know my comfort zone, my solace and my happiness.
Dreamer 